Out with the old...

I have finally taken a huge leap of faith and decided to donate my hair to Locks of Love.
I have been growing out my hair to donate it for a while and am very excited by my new look.
What do you think of it?

Thoughts on music

I truly, deeply, passionately miss singing and performing.

I miss being able to share my talents with others and be able to share that energy.

I miss the feeling of a choir in perfect tune. I miss the rush of a perfectly executed note. 

I miss the give and take of performing onstage and being in the moment. 

I hate that I have become so disconnected from music and performing. I hate that I feel so behind in my education and that I have great ideas, but I don't ever know how to execute them.

I want to love what I do and hold on to all of the things that make me who I am.

I want to go back to high school when I had so many opportunities to do all of the things I loved and produce so many amazing things. 

I want to go back to the great moments I had in Chamber choir with the great music we performed. 

I need that light and energy back in my life.

I'm coming home, I'm coming home

I'm currently sitting in the Salt Lake City airport after seven months of separation from my family and closest friends. I never thought this day would arrive, but here I am. I have spent the last few days with my family and welcomed the relaxation after finals, white glove cleaning and other general stresses.
These past 190 or so days have taught me so much about myself and what I am capable of. Although I have chosen not to return to BYU-Idaho, I am so grateful for the wonderful experience I had and the great people I had the privilege of meeting.
I learned quite a bit about myself in the time that I lived with girls I had never met before. We had our problems and differences, but I am a much better person because of the experiences we shared. Some of my most cherished memories took place in the simple conversations we shared. I am forever grateful to the kindness and love they showed me.
I am ready for the next chapter of my life to begin. I am excited for the new people I will encounter and the old friends I will reconnect with. I'm looking forward to the future and all the potential it holds. I hope and pray each day that I will be able to make a positive change or impression on someone through my actions.

I'm coming home and I cannot wait for what the future holds.

Down the rabbit hole

So I went to the Academic Advising Center today. I took a bunch of tests and talked with a peer counselor. It is quite possible that I will stumble into the wonderful world of nursing and not dental hygiene.
My only problem is that I am behind for both of the choices I'm considering. WHY??????
Why do I have to like so so so many things. I can't make up my mind half the time. Now that I actually know what I want to do (after switching my major twice) it will take me longer to get into a program because I have to take the prerequisites.
I know that one extra year or semester will seem like nothing in 20 years when I'm doing what I've always wanted. I'm not worried too much about it. My biggest problem right now is just figuring out which program I want to be in.
There are great options at BYU-I, but also at home in North Carolina. Honestly, I'd rather be home. Plus I need a car for the program here and I complete the program in four continuous semesters. No time to go home and work like I usually would. I guess I'm just going to have to work really hard when I'm home and see what I can do. I just know that being a nurse is exactly what I want to do.

Sunny with a high of 65...

Sunny and beautiful in Rexburg. Smelling like mangoes and rocking some turquoise eyeliner.

Looking forward to the future

So I've spent the past two weeks trying to figure out what to do with my life. I have finally figured everything out and it is a huge relief.
I'm pursuing a career in dental hygiene and will take prerequisite courses this coming school year and then transfer into a dental hygiene program. I have a few options as to where I will go-one in Utah and two in North Carolina-but I'm undecided for the time being.
I'm also planning to move into a real apartment next semester and escape the dorms.
Isn't it beautiful?

This apartment is barely more than I pay for the dorm I'm living in now and it is way better. Plus laundry is included in the price. I'm really excited to be moving on to a better living space. My dorm right now is annoying and it makes you seem like a 4th grader. It's almost embarrassing to tell people where you live if you're in the dorms. That won't be a problem for much longer!

I have 80 days left in the semester and I cannot wait to be home. My parents are trying to get my return flight date moved so I don't have to wait two weeks after the end of the semester to go home. 

Stay lovely!

First day of classes!

I'm sitting here drinking some raspberry herbal tea and getting ready for my first class of my second semester. How is it that the high today is only 40 and we are 2/3 of the way through April?
Thanks Rexburg for deciding never to get to Spring. It makes me miss home.